Tuesday, April 7, 2009

IF YOU WISH TO LOOK AT THIS POST PLEASE FINISH READING IT!
I am totally transparent i guess?
okay first thing i would like to apologize for my late post as i was suppose to post this at 4/4/09 but i was too tired and sick to do so...
and the purpose of me re-opening the blog is bcoz that its 1 yr since i open my blog and i feel like re-opening.

ok the road run itself was terrible, leaving me a bad mood for the day..
but that isnt the main thing to my 'emo-ness'...
the whole things starts with this bastard...
he trying to gain sympathies from every1 due to his illness, who knows he maybe be lying or nt... but from my point of view i am damn sick of wat's his doing and tolerating his childish-ness...

and that guy oso knows that i have the disease that falls under the same categories with him, i didnt wan the whole world to know and starts to sympathy me for being illed, i rather lead my own life and nt think abt it... and that idiot choose to show off to the whole world he has cancer? wat the fuck was that for ? although the word show off might nt really described wass going on, but i cant find a betta word..

then every1 started sympathise him and make him join the activities i am involved??
actually i wanted to be back friends with him like our normal days after he decided to annonce that its really cancer... i wanted show him concern and stuff... but look at wat he's doing to me..

in juz one day, my GOOD friends all hated me.....
after we played at the playground, they all sticked together chatting and chat, nt tht i have no topic to tok abt, it's whenever ur thr, i really dun feel like toking..
everybody was doing their own things, i was totally transparent in their eyes? perhaps....

then thr was this time they went up and wanted to get him a present.. i was like so kind of them, to buy him a present.. i didnt object but rather agrees on wat their doing... united class, but as i thought i was really wrong....

cause ron was looking at people playing at the arcade, then ur shld know wat i like to do( dee siao people) then in the end he look until very 入神 then i jk abit... chiong to under level... then lata he found us then he started to feel unhappy, and being left out... sitting in food court, then i go there pei him... then we started having our 'mens' talk .... the more we talk abt wass happening then, the more furious i get... cause the ron like talk cock, he said the gals are sick of us, now got new toys le they dun even care about botherin us, and i cant believe i replied..
with/without us oso wont make a difference, its like to them we have become their habits, always appear in their life, totally emotion-less...

then when they finally finish shopping/looking at wat they wan they threw us the letfover sweets, i was like wtf? isnt that worse than a maid ? i have to finish off wat's leftover... i have to withstand their attitude, and stop them from quarrelling even at times, counsole them... then wat have they done as a friend? making awful jkes?

then at first we already at that seat then after that one by one come occupy, i have to even give up the seats for them? then i decided to walk around the entire level of white sand... and we even counted how many rounds does it take for them to notice that we are actually nt thr anymore, this is being childish actually i told myself, but wouldnt want to be there to see his face anyway, so i still decided to have a walk... and then rounds and rounds passed.. the more and passed by them, the more i see their ignorance towards me, the sadded i became... and its finally the 12th rounds they notice us, we juz had another 2.4 i guess? or is it more than it? and guess wat ? they notice us onli when he left, their new toys gone then they come find the 'old toys' ? i might be easy-going, but i seriously do nt wants to be treated like that, the onli simple reason:" i am a human being! and doesnt wish to be treated like that "

i shall end here i dun really wanna tok abt it anymore....

finale.
6:49 AM